The Most expensive Life Gift

The Mile stone of Life 40 Years of a journey. 40 , what a beautiful number ! I must say this is one of the most, and absolutely strangest birthday we all celebrate, Mine was a little different, it came with loads of wanting things to happen, expecting myself in a certain way. And in the unlikely way god had other plans: My Plan! My plan started with a factor, of: I will be taking a leave from my work and heading to meet my brother and his family, I just wanted to spent this time with family, after my parent’s loss, I have literally been on my own, and available for everyone, and 39 was coming to an end, I seemed to burn many bridges, and choosing what and who can be acceptable in this journey of my life. All super excited, I packed my bags and drove down to my brothers. What can I say, the traffic got me stuck on the road for sooooooo long like yes very long, I was tired and exhausted, this was just a few hours before my birthday. I reached Home, and my sister-in-law was just with her baby, with excitement of me being there, it turned off a little, not sure what had changed, but I have always been the welcoming, and warm person, but it only seemed like it didn’t matter- maybe, she was a precious addition to our family as she gave us our little niece, anyhoo I was exhausted that evening and just wanted to rest. I did do as mentioned. however my excitement stirred up for the 12:00 midnight, for me to be posting my birthday, I was excited, strangely its was just the factor I was home, and maybe expected the first people to wish me would be my brother and sister in law , as they were awake , they probably forgot, my brother has not been this way , but he was totally changed, and I am in no way complaining as I understand his stress level , for the type of business he ran , I always felt, he deserved better when I life choices. I literally fell apart, and was wondering wrong had I done. Knowing I had not done anything wrong, I started sinking into the depth of missing my mother, who always was excited, well we have always been an excited family, ummm I had not received a cake either, which I wasok with,it wasn’t about having a cake as much as it was about being with a family I have always supported my brother in everything, and that includes all his life choices. Yes, this sank my heart, a lot and it wasn’t more about my sister-in-law honestly, but just because she is a home maker, maybe seeing what my mother did I somehow though she would take care of things, We had a maid who take care of everything and all she indulged was sleeping and phones, my brother had opened her a boutique where she sold designer clothes and yet, she had left it to her brother to help, I was so shocked what had changed, My mind started bubbling, maybe its her sister who is a single mother and always stayed with us, maybe there were allured with al the luxury, however my brother was not very rich, but pretty stable, where I had to struggle also for a day’s meal at times. I was in total awe. Well I dressed for the black and white eve, which was also what I had decided, I am quite fond of white color, We got the cake, I personally collected it, and took It to the bar. While I still am excited, but it all became strange and distant, it was like no one was interested and all I could think was, the amount of strain I took , when she was pregnant and had to deliver , I has quite some sleepless nights, and that where it all ended. I love my brother, it’s a sibling thing, we have our differences but well, The clock was almost striking 12 and all I could think was I was un important, and why did I drive this long just to ruin my day! I just went slept in my car and suddenly my brother started looking for me, and I said I am in the car, he instantly realized I was not happy as I had already posted how much I missed my parents and that little warmth. He was aware of all my struggles, but naturally he was over powered by his girlfriend and his child mother, I reached home, and just went to sleep with tears flooding, that I had ruined my own big day. Anyways guess, I created my own disaster for my day as I expected, should have just gone out bought myself a little cake and celebrated, I live alone and have never this lonely, but this killed me smashed all my happiness in shatters. However, the next day I did wake up and dress up with a broken heart, eyes filled with tears, went to a coffee shop got myself a cake and wished myself. Today I have experienced LOVE from total strangers, then from my own family. However, I was given a small posting party, to show the world they cared. And played long This is my perfect gift from the god, Maybe I expect too, Much, I need to realize I am my own best friend, And when even the shadows leave my side in darkness, I should not leave my own side. If no one cares, take charge yourself, God made you strong enough for the battles he put on the way. When success rings the bell, stay humble, they will look for you, take the moment and give them the taste of their own medicine Its normal, for people to treat you with ignorance, give them space and don’t bother them. No one really cares about you till you have the money. Stop giving time to relations that don’t fulfil, fill them money. I may have few tear droplets here and there, but there is all reasons for me to rise and shine beyond peoples negativity. For my brother, he shall always be shielded by the most powerful prayed that anyone can even think of. Dear 40 I hope this new chapter is going to be about love me self The birthday GIFT I NEVER GOT, BUT WAS THE BEST GIFT I WILL EVER GET . MYSELF TO ME !