The brutal awakening of the 2020 Lockdown :
where do we even begin from,
In a world Where we are so used to with ,the latest Tech Fast nature , How humans have evolved,
we are merely becoming Addicted or rather slaves to the medical industry, technolody, what changes have taken in this great evolvement .
I must Agree some brutal Awakening i personally had during the 2020 Lockdown was :
No matter what, life has ways to mess you, or rather shift you to places and dimensions unknown .
I am absolutely a person who likes giving her all in what she does,
I surely belive its either all in, or all out,
i work in an amazing field that connects me to direct NAture, its what i love about my work ,
but Lately, i have realised no matter how hard we work, companies are companies,
bosses are bosses , i will absolutely not say Bosses are mean, but yes its not something you own,
Having to deal with a mother on the last stage of cancer, has not only shredded me into pieces but also made me bitter in ways i couldnt imagine and this made me silent, as i had no means to help my mother financially, and jus see her deteriorate in my hands every single day,
where i am from, our industry had a major hit back by govt, and no employee was paid salary, and that caused a big drama, and make it better the CORONA virus was out where everyone had to just break and shatter walk away,
and in the same meantime the doctors alert us that my mother hardly had any chances of survival.
this experience made my heart bitter, as working no matter how hard i was financially crap, as people dont get paid in such its more like a hand to mouth pay, and that too comes in difficulty.
but it also made me grateful, that no matter what there is also hope & light at the end of the tunnel.
I absolutely believed , noone is responsible for your life but you, as i was lucky to be a refuge back home with my father brother and making sure i spent every breathe of my life with my mother, although i will always carry this regret, no matte how hard i worked, or how clear and pure my intetntions are, if someone is bling is blind, is someone is jealous is jealous, if someone has created a hatred has created, if someone does not want to see you rise, they will do anything.
and i then believed, the only person who tries to fail you , is th one who is failure on their own,
I am absolutely blessed :
I HAVE THE BSET MOMENTS WITH MY MOTHER, AND SHE WILL REMAIN MY QUEEN
I A MAGIC, REPLACING IT, IS IMPOSSIBLE,
I SAW MY SIDES THAT NEEDED HEALING , AND WORKING ON THEM
I AM AN ABSOLUTE, MAGICAL BEING OF THIS UNIVERSE, I AM INFINITE, I AM LOVE
There is no constance, it is my imperfection that makes me perfect, and i will find my place where i am absolutely appreciated, i am loved, i am the grace that i am born to be.
i cant thank people enough for allowing me to find myself.
I AM GRATEFUL TO CORONA, IT HAS HELPED SO MANY PEOPLE MAJOR AWAKENING, ENLIGHTENING, CHANGING THEIR BELIFS, AND SOME OF US MIGHT JUST TOTALLY CHANGE OUR ROUTES OF LIFE, MIGHT FIND NEW PURPOSES OF LIFE.
AS BITTER AS I HAVE TURNED, WHILE I AM HEALING,
I AM GRATEFUL, TO MY FATHER,& BROTHER WHO HAVE UNDERSTOOD MY EMOTIONAL AND PHYSICAL STATE SURING THIS TRANSITION, I HOPE AND PRAY THAT GOD WILL ALWAYS BLESS THEM WITH ALL THEY DESIRE AND DESERVE.
THANK YOU CORONA FOR THE MANY GOOD THAT CAME OUT FROM THIS SEASON.
WHATS YOU STORY ON THIS CATH, FANCY A SHARE & LIGHTEN UP !!!!
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