This
is a Once upon time fairy tale …. About Jack and Jilna.
Jack,
A kind and absolutely enthtusiaistic, young man, struggling through life, with
a smile on his face, with a heart on his sleeve, and feelings on his nose tip,
and small Past that used to irritate him, which he was trying run away from, or
rather ignore it.
Jilna
, the little angel of the home, raised in a very protective environment, and
with tight religious core values, fasting attending all festivals at the
temple, being raised as a very traditional Indian girl, who will one day marry
an Indian man and settle with him and have some kids… and lead a life.
Her
life was exactly the same typically , a girls life, with daily chores of keep
your room clean, learn to cook, you are so terrible at studies, she was
authentic at her gymnastic and sports, but as she hit her puberty, she was not
allowed as it was said its not good for her health-ethical reasons.
Her
life was a depression that even she never knew, school her friends always
teased her as “Mogli” yes the character from jungle book, and it always made her feel ugly and ashamed of herself, she
had few friends and used to be with them, as Art was another thing she enjoyed,
but inside of her, she was always lonely despite of having everything.
Having
to grow seeing her parents always fight, she had not liked the idea of marriage, as knowing she grew up
at her uncle from her mother side , and never knew who her father was, till she
was 7 of age, her mother made the effort of teaching her and telling her tales
of her father, speak on telephones , but the idea of marriage never matched her
conscience, she would be under the table watching her parents fight, or inside the blanket hoping the quarrel to end
in late night, she kept crying and blaming herself for all this. She had not
seen this all in seven years of growing up, a sensitive little girl, with no
interest in life, but walking along as it comes, hiding her tears and feelings,
as it was weakness to express them.
Suddenly
Life happens to her, she meets Jack, a friend from when she used to go at her uncle’s
town for her holidays , he was this
young boy at that time, who used ride his bicycle to the central library and
loved reading harry potter, they somehow had become friends, life had crossed
their way couple of few times before they finally met again in February 2013, now
a young man , happy and smiling always ready to help people, with a zest of
life, how could you not like him.
A
surprising turn life took on her, they used to talk every day, and chat, he
made her feel absolutely like an angel,where she was building walls of
protections, to keep herself away from anymore pain.but their they kept
chatting she liked the attention and affection she was receiving and in return
giving it too, then one day He decided
to propose her , as they were chatting on their cell phones , she was
absolutely scared and nervous , she was a Hindu, he was a Christian, what would
her parents say, how would they react, she was slowly melting for him.
This
happened on 24th April 2013; she decided not to reply, as she was
scared and did not know how to receive this beautiful gesture of love from him.
That silence stayed for a day, and he couldn’t take it anymore, or was not sure
how to take it, but he managed to convince her, that should not feel pressure
about what he said, and she decides to say YES , there will be respect and
understanding between each other, and no actions will be taken until both
agreed, which was very convenient for her, as far as her fears were concerned.
She
still maintained silence on that particular topic, leaving jack in confusion,
gifts and trips were just flying between each other, over the same week Jilna
decides to travel to jacks town for Easter, and all that nervousness, she
travelled with a friend, she was the closest to Jilna , at that time and she was happy, she really
supported her with loads, and gave valuable advices too.
It
is the 26th April 2013, national holiday and her brother requires to
go to the next town for car repair , and she goes along, where she could meet
jack, her brother knew Jack , and it was ok for him for them to be together .
Aww
she had the best breakfast date, jack worked in a tour company, that allowed
him to get good perks at good 4-5 star hotels, they strolled in town did the
shopping that jilna mom asked her to, jilna bought wind chymes for jack,this
was a beautiful feeling for her. she did accept his proposal with a good kiss (
that was romantic) .
So
much happened , life wnet by, and travelling and gifts were always there, On
one fine day jack decides to speak her parents, as to inform about them getting
to know each other , she was scared and worried for she knew what was coming
on, but she went with flow.
This
did not go very well, the jilna’s father and brother went to talk to him, and
he pursued and convinced, this particular outcome was expected, they clearly
refused, though the decision was a
combined decisions of hear and say, and also the thought that , what will the
society will say, how will my brother be accepted, and more like surrounding.
Jack
had been through a storm, and jilna felt bad, what jilna had to go through was,
she was being followed wherever she went, her phones were tracked and checked
on everything, her social media was questionable for everything, everything
posted was questioned and asked to change, she had a massive fight, for the
only thing she ever asked in her 28yrs was to get to know this person, it was a
frustrations she couldn’t take it, she was pushes from both sides, jack pushed
her, so did the parents, she wasn’t sure what to do, it was a point she wanted
to take up her whole bottle of medicine,
she didn’t do that.
What
she did was held her feelings, and she travelled out to another country in Africa
to her to aunt, she had a good time, got some gifts for jack too, and sent it
to him. She always managed to send him something, it was more like a way of her
caring. He was good too had gotten her a small Tanzanite as she loved purple
colour.
Life
was terrible for her, she was trying to accept, and also told jack she had no
courage to fight anymore and he should move on, if time had plans they would
meet up, life will bring them back.
They
did depart from here, she was torn apart , she left her job, started home
baking , she was well supported, and did well, always prayed life to better,
her nights were filled with tears and days with hardly a smile, its like her
was snatched from her, why not this was the only thing and first ever incident
in life, she did not know what was happening and why.
It
was like god heard her prayers, she got a job offer in the city, and she was to
shift where jack was. She was super scared, but also excited, she was still under
pressure from her family, but she fought hard and grew, still scared, and
anxious, these emotions never left her.
After
8 month she did transfer to the town where jack lives, not expecting anything,
she knew he had moved on and accepted someone else, she was ok with it and
always sent blessings , always prayed for him.
Few
months pass by and , she receives a text from jack, asking to meet up, they do
and once become good friends, while he tells her that he had broken with the
women he was with.
They
do maintain a good friendship and all so cool and stuff, he wins her trust once
again. A little she knew it was all for nothing but but to quench his needs. They
get closer and that ends to intimacy, a painful event for her, she accepted for
she thought she was creating a forever bond, she goes through hell, to an
extent she learns , if she had conceived by mistake , he would totally deny to
have been his child.
Another
breakdown for her, she couldn’t just accept jack could have done this, she
stood for him anytime he asked for her, she was always at his service, just
after that he started ignoring and only considering her when he needed to calm
is urges.
It
came a point no matter how hard it was , no matter how many times he asked for
her, she made a point he would prove to her that he truly wanted to be with her, as much as
she thought he would prove her , he always let her down, everytime all the
time.
Jilna
was lucky to have friends who stood by her one lovely friend she had Nayeku, a
sweet masai girl always by her side, jilna is ever grateful to her for
supporting and being her strength,she wishes her good and blessed life where ever she may be.
Jack
never won her trust again , and she decided to live happily accepting the truth ,
he never meant to love her, he was only a poker, and not a responsible person, and hopes he learns to be a man.
She
had to forgive without an apology , she had to let go ..and live on.
Jilna
is a career driven girl today, at the age of 33, all she is focused on is her career,
and building an empire, she lives independent, understands Love is one
expensive emotions and careful what she does, she is a healer, a charmer, cries
a lot a lot, but also gets up dusts herself and gets back in to game, she is
not close to building her dream , but has faith she will build it. She believes
yes she is not where she wants to be, how she wants to be but she is absolutely
not where she was.
Everything happened for a reason, this all chaos had to take place so she could reach to her life purpose destiny, now as Jilna understands these occurrence, she takes them slow, she did adapt spirituality , meditation Reiki healing , wishes to complete masters and help, those wish to be helped.
She
finally affirmed:
JACK
: ( if you are reading this, Thank you)
Thank
you, I understood the true value of love, will only share it one I feel I want
to,
Thank
you, as I learnt the pain, and know, I have no rights to hurt anyone with false
hope
Thank
you , for teaching me Trust is only expected from very few, while I gave you
mine
Thank
you, for I have grown up to be bold strong brave and infinity.
I
believe and hope god had better plans for you.
JILNA to herself:
I
hereby Forgive, as I understand my life is precious, and i need to take care of myself
I
accept my fate, with the faith I am healed
I
accept my gifts,
I
love my parents, and I bow to my knees, and ask for forgiveness, may I be to the best service to them this life.
I
am an absolute angel’s shadow, who broke her wing, repairing it and learning to fly again
I
hereby open all the universal portal of healing, and acceptance, forgiving and
forgetting,
I
hereby with the divine energy cut all the cords , that no longer serve me . Namaste.
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